Our friendship lay shriveled
In the arms of uncertainty
Succumbed to the clutches
Of love that must have held
Us together, rather
Coated with the layer
Of ignorance that now surrounds
Our souls that lay bare
In presence of love
That has drifted us apart.
I miss us.. Our friendship
Somewhere in afterlife
I shall meet you.
And we shall become
Friends again..
~Shambhavi
Dark circle guards
My eyes they seem fine
No sleep, no slumber
Exposed to dis- ease & dis- comfort
I need some sleep
Devoid of apprehension.
I had forgotten the chaos
With the bliss of meditation
But, I’ve this thorn
In the bouquet of my life
Disturbing my peace,
My sleep-
that’s dear to me.
~Shambhavi
I closed my eyes- To see your face
Face a mirror of your soul, of your lies
Where do we stand?
When will you come,
With an apology in hand?
May it seem easy for some,
Broken heart, shattered dreams,
What may come of it? Ignorant, are you?
Can you hear me scream?
Rants and whims all lost-
On a scary note at night.
My heart cried a shrill for toss-
Of meaningless feelings; fright!
Of what may come and what may go.
With a Crafty mind you were a scrupulous confidante!
They say you shall reap what you sow!
I doubt the redundant.
Will you mend what you’ve broken?
Will you be my lighthouse? I’ll be your sea. But, all you’ve done is left me shaken.
Trust? What that may be?
Caressing my wounds, my hope-
Was God and my indomitable flicker!
He came to save my life, with a rope,
And strength and wisdom, my faith grew deeper.
My soul survived the darkness,
Recovery touched me when I was low,
Filled me with invincible brightness.
Soaring high, I’ll connive you foe!
~ Shambhavi
P.S: Sometimes we are left with only ourselves, cause we wouldn’t want to upset our loved ones. Though they wouldn’t mind listening to our rant and advice accordingly. It’s just that we wouldn’t want them to worry about us, trying to spare them the dark side of the person who they love. Trying hard to uplift my mood.
Today I lost my cool;
Cried my eyes out
And all you managed
to say were excuses!
I don’t want your sympathy.
All I needed was a helping hand,
Teeny tiny Consideration-
Which you lacked.
It’s hard for me to manage
Though, I’ve given nothing
But my best
Perhaps, it’s not me it’s you.
~Shambhavi
That ‘me’ within needs no tongue to express
It’s mal-functional when I’m in distress.
I wonder what I’ve on my mind
Whether an extraordinaire or the daily rind.
It’s not the unexpected turn of events I fear
Is it the plain pressure what they call of peer?
Oh Madame moiselle, I may correct you
Hello how are you? How do you do?!
Not just exchange of few verbal bizarre
At times, my mouth goes topsy turvy over par
I’m scared of nothing but my mistakes
Pardon me, I’ll try to pull the brakes
Over this very fear
I promise never to shed any tear
Over the matter so menial
As a matter of fact I’m being real.
I hate pleasing
As a matter of fact, that word isn’t appealing
At all I must add a few
It’s not just that I hate one or two
There are many that makes this ‘me’
Fall of the curve, down that C
Verbal diarrhoea they say
Has no cure whatever may
I tried hard and harder not to fail
My sea is mine and my boat is all mine to sail
Cease, is what I could afford
But, what do I do of all the emotional load?
Some say, suppress it, some say express it
When I do as they say, they don’t suffer one bit
At last I now know of that,
It’s your life, wear your choice of hat
Dress like a stripper or a clown
Up you go or down you drown
You got your soul
Hold yourself and up you roll
Your sleeves of wisdom
Continue your tandem
Beats of expression
Leave it all, have no tension.
~Shambhavi
I’m not scared of Inhibitions,
I’m tired of it.
-Shambhavi
I feel like crying right now;Cause, it’s taking a lot in me
To fight the fight
that’s happening around me.
An endless, tiresome cycle
Of misery and commotion,
Inside my head that refuses
To cease.
I’m tired of the chaos;
And I’ll fight till
the chaos gets tired of me.
~Shambhavi
When memoriesfade away,
they take away
the very feeling
that made it special.
~Shambhavi
I am so torn apart,
I can’t find peace within;
Surrounded by chaos-
All I need is some timeout.
– Shambhavi
Anomalous Love
Feelings I had,
For you, I would’ve done the
Unimaginable.
Good God, stopped me
I stood like a frozen statue
One that didn’t thaw
In the extinguished fire
That never lasted between us
There was a spark
Or it was a prank
What mattered that I was victimised
How could I love you
With a love that didn’t ring
That didn’t sting,
Just you!
I died thousand deaths
You were a smart arse
You escaped the harsh wring
Of barbed wires
Scars I wear everyday
Scars that make me who I’m
I held my heart out on my sleeve
Like plunging hand in lion’s mouth
They say,
I plunged my heart out for you.
What a blunder, oh my
What a blunder
How could I love you
Anomalous Love
That thundered
While I danced alone
To the song that never really was mine
To begin with
For all I had was you
My end and my beginning
Something that was never meant to be
I died thousand deaths
But you passed every time.
~Shambhavi
P.S:If this feels like a dark place, kindly forgive me. 🙂
Sending sunshine in the darkest hours of your life.🌻🌻🌻🌻
