From last Saturday to the present was an overwhelming, intensely emotional period for me.
On 31st December, I turned 25!
Isn’t it supposed to be the most beautiful moment of my life? Yes, it was! I had a blast with my family here and abroad. I felt loved and adored, had an amazing day indeed.
1st January, New Year’s: 2017
It wasn’t as great as I’d expected it to be. So far, not so good. Only when the year had began to pick up pace I was greeted, rather thrashed with the most painful news of my life on 5th January, that my aunt was no more.
I couldn’t believe that at all! I still can’t, with my eyes brimming with tears that wouldn’t cease. I’m lost, I feel as if their is a void that no one can fill. We were very close. She was much more to me than anyone can imagine.
Why did she leave me and go?
Somewhere, I am trying to comfort myself saying, she was in lot of pain and God decided to give her peace. She was the best person on earth for me, no one was like her or ever will be. I loved her, I still do and will always!
I hope she is in a place where she is happy and devoid of any pain. I want her to be happy, she was the most forgiving, loving, caring person I’ve ever come across. She wouldn’t harm anyone, never ever. I miss you, miss you a lot Bua.
Today is 8th of January, and I’m still trying to cope up with the loss that is irreparable. Sitting all by myself at a coffee shop with a Book beside me which I haven’t opened yet.
The only way I can connect with her is by keeping her dream alive. By becoming the best of who I’m and what I’m.
It’s definitely not a bed full of roses, it’s going to be a challenge that I’m ready to accept and live. I’ve to and I’ll.
I hope to be under your blessed sky always God. Somewhere, somehow I know, Bua, you’re still looking down on me and smiling. Love you loads, always and forever.
P.S. – Bua is Father’s sister (aunt).
I am glad I could pour my heart in here. I’m feeling a little better now. 😊
Thankyou for bearing with me and always encouraging me. It means a lot really.