Everytime

Everytime,

I pause to forgive you,

I board a plane,

to land of my miseries.

Everytime,

I try to forgive you:

I convince myself

not to do so.

Everytime,

I feel I must forgive you:

my past flashes,

to blur my vision.

Everytime,

I push myself to forgive you:

glimpse of broken me,

pushes me away.

Everytime,

I think of forgiving you:

Memories of your ruthless behavior,

enrages my heart.

Lest,

to move forward,

I need to forgive you.

Past be my lesson,

I won’t let you

Darken my present.

Everytime,

hence will cease.

This time.

I will forgive you,

I will let go,

Peace.

-Shambhavi